Vday is lame in less you have someone special to spend it with

14 hours at school, now I'm home to eat ice cream cuddle my kittens and watch a girly movie probably my big fat greek wedding

this past week has been insane, first I get dumped two days after my fathers birthday who committed suicided not even a year a go, let me be honest with my self on here even if I initiated the conversation that ended a lie a lie I told my self cause I'm desperate to find some one to love. And have daddy issues like everyone else, but all my friends are finding these amazing relationships around me and It makes me feel like my father more and more .......

but other then that I have had running crew and am prepping for a film room 905 my costume designers are WAY over their heads ( lead builder ) my running crew ended last night and my film prep is till wednesday when the next day we start filming which ends sunday ( i work the morning then do a night shoot for one of our scenes in a pool ) make a men's 50's bathing suit WOOT and a fantasy forest dress.

other then that THANK YOU TO ALL MY LOVING FRIENDS THAT HAVE WISHED ME A HAPPY VDAY OR DROPED BY WITH PRESENTS

Kelly Clarkson - Never Again

Retraction

So I've been stressing my self out with school to the point of head aches, later periods, back problems, and health problems

I know I said I want to be a costume designer no matter what, but I don't want to be a power woman, I love designing and sewing and working hard but it's not making me happy right now the down sides of the film industry are really weighing heavy on my heart . There are so many statistics about being divorced dieing early, no time for friends and family well on a movie. I need my personal life I need my friends and loved ones away from the industry to keep me saine. Not only that I want to be successful and happy and I can't be happy without the people I love. Yes I need to make sacrifices yes its hard yeah yeah, but some times its to much and I think it might be. I can still use my education to do something I love but I don't know if I want this any more

I see the people that are obsessed with their jobs putting them first before everything, they're loved ones are bitter and unhappy making them unhappy. I'm just letting some thoughts out right now

Home sick cause I woke up in to much pain took a large dose of pain meds time for more rest Ill rant more later

I SWEAR

I swear to what ever higher power is listening that I will be a costume Designer

Some Quotes from some one who changed the world of fashion for women

a little bit from my report

Coco Chanel is best know for bringing to the world of fashion the “little black dress,” her signature cardigan jacket, and Chanel No. 5 perfume. She gave women comfort and casual elegance with her fashions: simple suits, dresses, trousers and costume jewelry.

Despite dating some of the most influential men during her time, Chanel never married. When asked about her refusal to marry the Duke of Westminster, she would reply, “there have been several Duchesses of Westminster. There is only one Chanel”. Chanel created loose fitting casual clothing made from jersey, and other materials used more typically for men’s underwear, liberating woman from corsets.

“In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different,” “People laughed at the way I dressed, but that was the secret of my success: I didn’t look like anyone.” Chanel


“Fashion is not simply a matter of clothes,” said Chanel. “Fashion is in the air, born upon the wind. One intuits it. It is in the sky and on the road.” Chanel


“The style is instantly familiar - those boxy jackets made from the softest tweed and edged in braid, the gilt buttons, the quilted bags. You hardly need to notice the CC logo to know that this suit or that bag is by the house of Chanel.”- Bel Mooney

“In fashion, you know you have succeeded when there is an element of upset,” Chanel.

“Dress shabbily and they remember the dress,” “Dress impeccably and they remember the woman.” Chanel

“Fashion is architecture: it is a matter of proportions.” -Chanel

“Fashion is made to become unfashionable.” -Chanel

“I don't know why women want any of the things men have when one the things that women have is men.” -Chanel

Need an entrusting topic

I relise no one will want to read my borring blog about my every day happenings so I need to pick a part of it and focus on it I gues the costuming and what I'm learning or what I'm working on.

I also relise the only person at this time fallowing me is one of my closest friends and has to listen to me moan and wine on a regular bases BLAH BLAH so yeah POSTIVE posts 98% of the time cause you know lifes, life


PB out


want very much <3<3<3<3

TACOS

I think I have a taco obsession, its only day 2 though so I’ll wait and see. (going to get tacos again this time from the taco bell in the mall, hoping not to spill my Diet Cola this time.

I tend to forget o wear my glasses when reading and working on the computer which leads to headaches, I only got my glasses last year in my first semester. I think my body is already starting to fail me after pushing it so hard for 3 very intense cosplay years [ I’ve cosplayed for more just I was the only stitcher ( tehehehe technical terms) cutter, and well all around costume supervisor ]for the construction of anywhere from 9+ costumes, I’ve had around 20-25 costumes once with commissions. But yes I think its catching up to me cause I use wrists braces when doing most my work as well as now I have glasses and a giant bottle of Motrin good for almost all my aches and pains.

Today in dye class I did some tests with some break down tools and schmutz and schmutes ( saying those words makes me giggle)

It’s a rainy day which I love and am much more productive during, but I cradled my diet Pepsi ( I know it’s worse but I’m cutting out sugar) and tacos all the way home, there’s a small park on the route home today it was FULL of crows and a few seagulls so I held them even closer for fear they would attack. It’s like the Bermuda triangle of weird there’s always random clothes laying on the benches and a purse and back pack its always sooo creepy and I hate walking through it late at night