Vday is lame in less you have someone special to spend it with

14 hours at school, now I'm home to eat ice cream cuddle my kittens and watch a girly movie probably my big fat greek wedding

this past week has been insane, first I get dumped two days after my fathers birthday who committed suicided not even a year a go, let me be honest with my self on here even if I initiated the conversation that ended a lie a lie I told my self cause I'm desperate to find some one to love. And have daddy issues like everyone else, but all my friends are finding these amazing relationships around me and It makes me feel like my father more and more .......

but other then that I have had running crew and am prepping for a film room 905 my costume designers are WAY over their heads ( lead builder ) my running crew ended last night and my film prep is till wednesday when the next day we start filming which ends sunday ( i work the morning then do a night shoot for one of our scenes in a pool ) make a men's 50's bathing suit WOOT and a fantasy forest dress.

other then that THANK YOU TO ALL MY LOVING FRIENDS THAT HAVE WISHED ME A HAPPY VDAY OR DROPED BY WITH PRESENTS

Kelly Clarkson - Never Again

Retraction

So I've been stressing my self out with school to the point of head aches, later periods, back problems, and health problems

I know I said I want to be a costume designer no matter what, but I don't want to be a power woman, I love designing and sewing and working hard but it's not making me happy right now the down sides of the film industry are really weighing heavy on my heart . There are so many statistics about being divorced dieing early, no time for friends and family well on a movie. I need my personal life I need my friends and loved ones away from the industry to keep me saine. Not only that I want to be successful and happy and I can't be happy without the people I love. Yes I need to make sacrifices yes its hard yeah yeah, but some times its to much and I think it might be. I can still use my education to do something I love but I don't know if I want this any more

I see the people that are obsessed with their jobs putting them first before everything, they're loved ones are bitter and unhappy making them unhappy. I'm just letting some thoughts out right now

Home sick cause I woke up in to much pain took a large dose of pain meds time for more rest Ill rant more later